bloody hell its been a long time!i havent been up to much..no..i lie, yes i have :D My position as Customer Services Manager has been going great..s’great having power, mwhahahahahah..apart from the long hours :| I started going out again this month..having a great time seeing all the friends I lost contact with for so long..but seems that as soon as I get back with one group of friends..the other starts to ignore me and vice versa.’tis a real pain [...]

Sorry I havent posted in a hell of a long time..Had a lot on my mind recently..I was told offially last week that I have the job of Customer Services Manger at work now, so thats a fucking huge step for me, I mean..i’m not even 18 yet.I thought I was getting better..but had a shit night 2nite so, have things gone pear shaped? ech.Bought the War Child CD yesterday..man, what a waste of £14. (except the fact that proceeds [...]

:) yay..now i know i’m useful for something..giving answers to obscure questions :PYes..that is my answer to that guys’ question..how did I know that do u ask? I’m just full of useless information :P http://www.bbc.co.uk/wales/southeast/yoursay/topics/askalocal.shtml

I knew all this anyways..but, its been confirmed twice now (this is the unofficial one). Disorder | RatingParanoid: Very HighSchizoid: HighSchizotypal: HighAntisocial: HighBorderline: Very HighHistrionic: HighNarcissistic: HighAvoidant: Very HighDependent: Very HighObsessive-Compulsive: High URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mvURL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html

I’ve only been out of hospital for 2 weeks…yet in that short space of time, I’ve had so many thoughts of regret. But, not the regret you might think I mean.The regret that I *wasnt* killed.These thoughts have most definately been more frequent than thoughts of, “I’m glad they didnt kill me”. This sucks.I’ve replayed nearly all my bad times through my head.And even gone through some other memories I have..to find out if they werent really good..and I was [...]